21/Abr/2021
Thought process of when I'm interested in talking to someone:
- Worry about: I'm being dumb for expecting people to come to me, but me going after people feels me being needy
- Worry about how to start a conversation without being a weirdo or annoying
- Worry about not appearing uninterested but not too pushy
- Worry about not looking boring, but not being too full of self
- Worry about having topics to talk about but not being overwhelming
- Worry about not appearing like I want the conversation to end, but also not trying to be pushy about continuing
- Worry about wether or not the person doesn't hate me enough to not be annoyed if I try talking to them some other time
- Worry about wether the person is only putting up with you as a courtesy
- Worry about being a creeper for trying to talk to them multiple times or just a rando for not trying to talk to them multiple times
Come to conclusion: It's too hard, better not bother with human interaction